================================================ Subject: Re: [omcf] Re: ncr: really random question From: "Keith P. Mears" To: Date: Mon 15 Oct 2001 16:07:52 -0500 ================================================ Okay, I must STRONGLY disagree with you here. I've been an alcoholic for almost 15 years, and I've tried every way IMAGINABLE to control it. The simple fact is this: THERE IS NO CONTROLLING ALCOHOLISM/ADDICTION. That's like saying there's a cure, and it's just not true. I am VERY proud to have 2 years and 2 months sobriety under my belt, but I will never again kid myself into thinking that I'm cured. I'm not, and I never will be. I AM in recovery, and with any luck, I'll STAY that way, but it is ONLY recovery, not a cure. I will be an alcoholic/addict until I die, and while that STARTED as a result of my choosing to drink/smoke pot, that was just the catalyst. Once I made THAT choice, I took any further choice away from myself. And let me just say that I'm NOT trying to say that for 15 years, I CHOSE to stay wasted. I didn't. In fact, I tried rehab, cold turkey, pretty much everything I could to stop. None of it worked, in part because I wasn't TRULY committed to MAKING it work, but also because even when I thought I WAS committed, sometimes temptation was just too great for me to resist. > Also, it is my belief that if you first choose alcoholism, you can stop it after. But if it's let too long, then it gets harder. It's not necessarily out of your hands until it gets too far gone.>> > To unsubscribe or change your preferences for the Creed-Discuss list, visit: http://www.winduplist.com/ls/discuss/form.asp